If you've read my stuff before, I'm sure you're well aware that I take most opportunities in my life to learn about myself. One relationship I'm always working on & committed to getting right, is the one I have with myself. But let's face it, I've been disloyal to me too, one to many times. But the point is, every occurrence is a learning opportunity.
What have I learned recently? A shitload, but 1 major point is that I'm a horrible student. That I can write a thesis of the things I have learned along the way, but find it quite difficult to put it into practice. I don't implement my lessons (not always, at least) so what's the point? Why pride myself in being so self reflective when essentially it's just a footnote that goes unnoticed...
"Cuando me conviene"... (when it's convenient to me)
I take all this knowledge & store it for future reference...but when will I really listen to myself? When will I go back to my notes and make decisions based on what I know & not solely on what I feel??
Logic, I have plenty of it. I'm not a person that walks blindly through life & I'm not ignorant to the realities of a series of situations. I do in fact store all my lessons and keep them very present & very relevant.
But I am stubborn... I do not care about the lessons life has prepared me with. I simply care about what my soul tells me to do at that very moment. & I've learned...that not a single thing could stop me from doing exactly what I feel like, in that very moment.
Not society, not logic, not much...
One thing my lessons have prepared me for... sharing my knowledge... It has built me into one hell of a support system for those I care about... it has given me endless amount of wisdom to share with those around me...
but... when will I start listening to that girl that knows way beyond her years, but refuses to let go of purity of a childs heart...
your guess is as good as mine...
xoxo
signs the girl with the wisdom of a 50 yr old & the actions of a 16 yr old...
