Not the one...

I've realized that probably one of the most difficult parts of a relationship ending is accepting that "you're not the one"... Realizing that yet again time was spent on something that wasn't concrete and wasn't meant to last. It's a mix of nostalgia for the times you'll miss, mixed with a heavy heart to know you'll have to start over. Jump into this journey of seeking that which your heart yearns for and deciding to take that risk yet again.

I've learned that there is in fact a difference between someone "not being into you" and "you just not being the one". Someone might in fact have all the feelings we classify as necessary for a relationship, but not always is it enough for the extra mile, the extra step, the extra hurdle...
Just, Not the one.

It's not an easy pill to swallow, it often comes with some self doubt, you kinda unknowingly start looking within yourself trying to figure out what you might have done differently. You try to figure out what is it about you that makes you, NOT the one. What traits about yourself you could have altered to make this work. When the reality is, nothing you could have done would change the outcome. Things not only work out due to effort, but just simple universal stars aligning and something just working out. We can't force anything in this life, including the outcome of something so personal as a relationship. Some people find out they aren't the one fairly early on, others years down the line... sometimes you're just not the one, anymore... Plenty of things could have been done differently, but that doesn't mean circumstances and the outcome would change.

Prolonging a situation that has already proven not to work, is a personal decision, people take the time they feel necessary to go through the motions of an extended farewell. But once you've accepted that something isn't going to work out because "you aren't the one" it must be acknowledged that the universe won't suddenly change things.

But I guess you also learn that you don't know much of anything... That as much as you try to apply logic to something as complex as feelings and relationships, you'll never really have the answer, or know what's next. That you can only cautiously try to apply the lessons you have learned and apply them to new circumstances... and hope for the best...

but you just never truly know...

xoxo
signs the girl trying too hard.