Private Friends

In a world that has become so public, very little is completely private.

As you may or may not know, I'm quite a public person. I love sharing life with everyone that's in mine. I share the good moments and the people I love most. I've always been this way. I enjoy shouting from the mountain tops when I love my friends & family deeply. Until I had to learn that very few people are like me. That most people don't wear their heart on their sleeves and dedicate paragraphs to their friends. That some people prefer to love you privately, fully.

I guess growing up with a dad like mine, I should have learned this lesson early on in life. Papi loves deeply, but not always visibly. As much as you question his heart, you could never question his loyalty.

It makes sense why I attract so many people that are very much like him. My girl best friend barely post pictures of herself, much less me. My guy best friend. most people think we don't even talk. You wouldn't think my ex even liked me (or anyone) unless you spent enough time with him.

& a select other friends...

Not to say this is easy. It was a learning curve, one I only embraced NOW after all these years. It took a lot of crying, not understanding and acceptance. Accepting that how someone feels isn't necessarily for everyone else to see. That for something to be genuine, it doesn't require a witness. That you shouldn't question anyone who's consistently there, based on assumptions made by others on observations made in public. How something looks in public doesn't necessarily define it's substance (both in good & bad lights). In a world that has become so public... accepting that something is better in private seems hard to comprehend.

I've learned that sometimes people aren't hiding me, they are simply embracing me in private.

(Then there are those other people, just hiding me lol)

xoxo,
signs the girl embracing her private friends, you know who you are.