Fitness

I entered 2016 fully determined to get fit & healthy. To cut my bad eating habits and to completely change how I looked at food. I started this mostly because I was looking a hot mess and also because I'm a toe away from 30. 

Among other shallow & dumb reasons I won't mention here

(let's face it when it comes to physical appearance you will always have a number of silly motivations) 

I'm proud to say 108 days into the year & I'm making hella' progress. Still fully committed to my physical goals. I still have a long way to go and not fully at my desired goal, but very proud of how far I've come. As little as it may seem to a bystander (I'm sure I could have done more & gone harder, but my progress is at a speed I'm cool with) it has still been huge progress to me. 

This obviously isn't my only focus this year, but it's one of those goals everyone can notice without you saying a word. It's one of those things where your failure is obvious & success is too. Spiritual, Mental & Financial accomplishments are very private and can't really be noticed or acknowledged. Physical ones though...everyone takes notice, even the ones not trying to notice. So it's definitely an added incentive and/or added pressure to obtain physical goals. 

I haven't been entirely public with my journey (except on snapchat which I use for accountability) until right now, which I'm sharing with the world my journey. I wasn't private on purpose, just didn't entirely need the world for motivation. I finally found the motivation within myself to get it right this time. The cherry on top is the people I've motivated along the way, people that have decided to change things as well, the close friends & family that are now walking the journey with me. They are a constant silent motivation.

I'm embracing the process, it becomes tiresome & unchanging sometimes. I forget what I'm working so hard for, and try to tell myself I'm perfectly fine how I am. WHICH, I am perfectly fine, but if I can achieve better, why not? 

I have to constantly fight the battle of "you're good now, but you wanted otherwise, so work for it".... So I have to fight the urge to beat myself up for not doing good enough, while patting myself on the back for doing great & being okay with where I am, all while maintaining motivation to proceed... see, even saying that was exhausting. 

Luckily the journey has been a successful one & a seemingly smooth one thus far. Celebrating every accomplishment along the way and not quitting...most importantly, NOT QUITTING AT ALL... 

This is a very personal & private journey, one that essentially can only walk on my own, but Just filling you in on the steps I'm taking to reach my own perfection... 

This isn't my first journey, but hope this ones the one that sticks & is ongoing... The one I commit to long term...Hoping for a lot of things to stick this year... 

xoxo

signs the girl getting rid of commitment issues.