The Box...

I'd like to consider myself a modern day woman. To an extent...
While I have some old school thoughts here & there, I'm mostly fully "modern" & "new age" when it comes to sex & sexuality.

BUT

Recently, I dramatically & drastically have discovered that I'm quite naive when it comes to my own sexuality. I guess when you're surrounded by a lot of males, you have to be to an extent, in order for it to work. If I walked around thinking all my friends wanted to get in my pants, well... we wouldn't be friends. I mean, I hate the ladies that think that absolutely everyone wants to sleep with them. But I guess I shouldn't just assume "no, Joe Bob doesn't care that I'm hugging him with this mini skirt on, because he's my friend" which is what I think 85% of the time. I mean... I don't take it as far as getting naked in front of my guy friends (but I don't even get naked in front of my girl friends either). But I am way too comfortable, I guess.

I guess I'm not as self aware of my own sexual energy as much as I thought I was. Unless it's obvious & in my face.

This is not to say I don't think I'm hot & nice to look at and admire. It's just that I assume if we don't have that type of relationship, you're not looking at me that way, because I sure as hell am not looking at you that way. As if friend goggles were automatically purchased when we created this friendship. Which isn't the case, ever. It usually takes drastic circumstances for me to even think about this being a factor. Which is where the me being naive comes to play. Mostly because I should always be aware. I should always know it's a two way street & I should be more self aware with the energy I'm throwing out there. ESPECIALLY being the person I am, I drink like a sailor and make more inappropriate jokes than one too.

SOo...NEWSFLASH someone is going to take it a certain way, at some point or other. Heck, someone might even try something at some point because of it, and when that does happen I shouldn't be 100% surprise.. but guess what ...I'm always 100% surprised. (again, naive sally over here) In fact ::gasp:: someone might be your "friend" for that reason & that reason alone... Imagine that.. lol

I mean I'm not walking around blind in these streets either, I know sexual energy when it's there..I'm just never fully aware when I'm giving off the WRONG energy.

So in conclusion... If you have a box, people are going to try to open it.

xoxo
signs the girl with a box.