Society tends to set a lot of rules on what we should or shouldn't do. I tend to, for the most part, go against some of these norms, not to be rebellious, but because I go with the wind & do whatever my soul feels at the moment.
One of the many taboo things I do, is maintain friendships with people I've been intimately involved with. Be it husband, boyfriend, casually cuddling friend ;) or everything in between... I tend to remain friends with some of these guys. Not because I'm keeping them reserved for future reference, but because once I have an emotional connection with someone, it is here to stay. I pride myself in being a good friend, so despite something not working out romantically, friendship wise, it will ALWAYS work. (For the most part)
Not to say these lines aren't sometimes blurry initially, but with time it's like any other friendship. I guess this is also attributed to my ability to get along well with men generally ( a lot of girls say this, but it's not necessarily true,) I'm not a girl with a bunch of guy friends, I'm a borderline guy with guy friends.
But I've swayed off track & the point. While I pride myself in my ability to maintain friendships and in people counting on my energy... I can't help but wonder why the fugz am I being friend zoned? People don't slow fade me, they keep me by their side forever. Like people want to be around me, but not with me? I mean in simple terms I'm likely a better friend than I am a partner. I know it's really a matter of timing and meeting the wrong people, but I must be doing something offsetting. Doing something right, yet wrong...if that makes sense.
This is not to say every single person I've talked to keeps me around. Some people I'm sure want to make believe I never existed (sounds like a personal problem). It's simply to say, clearly I'm not that bad, I have my flaws, as does everyone, but it makes it difficult to pinpoint sometimes.
I'm great or just not that great...
no se...
xoxo
signs the girl that's just a friend...kinda
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