It's now or never...

Life happens...We are often forced to make adjustments to who we are. Circumstances change us, people change us, life changes us.

If you can name one constant in life...it's that nothing is constant. 

With all that being said...I'm in a transitional place in my life (But, I guess everyone usually is). I'm reaching the end of my 20's. Approaching 30, rapidly. No longer a young adult, no longer "young", no longer in the entirely carefree zone. (Don't get me wrong being 30 isn't old by any means, it's just a very different period in life, FOR ME, at least).... So here I am, saying farewell to 28 & hello to 29... Ready to re-evaluate where I want to be in the next 5 to 10 years. It almost feels like a reset button, like all the things that didn't work out have to be reconsidered now. Like my dreams now have to actually become a reality. Like my goals have to be backed up with a concrete plan, no longer simple wishes. As much as I hate the feeling, it's like a clock is ticking inside... one that every so often whispers- "it's now or never, doll"... 

So that's my motto for the next couple of years...

Not a race. Not setting my life plan based on anybodies expectations or where everyone else is in comparison. I feel as humans we tend to do that often, I guess it's the way society is set up. We look around us and wonder why we might be in a different place than others. Knowing very well the answer as to why...well, because you did things differently, made different decisions & experienced different speed bumps & turns. Nothing wrong with that...it's your life after all... 

It has me a bit nervous, a bit uneasy. For reasons I don't feel like discussing at the moment, I stopped planning & stopped setting goals a while back. Recently though (the last year or so), I've slowly but surely started to create mental timelines... & while it makes me sick sometimes, it's a great feeling....to at least set a road map for where you want to be. Even if, as you already know, you might end up else where. At least you have set the foundation for the road you want & that in itself is enough. 

One thing that will not change & I will continue to make efforts to keep... Is my ability to not take myself too seriously. To still giggle at childish things, to still keep the passion inside of me, despite all of the realities of life. So, 30... I'm ready for you... With my young soul & child like smile... the dreamer inside will never grow old... 

But the adult will now work....

XoXo

Signs the girl that is ready for the next big thing...ME