Street Beat...

I never considered myself someone that was easily influenced. I usually march to the beat of my own drum. 

OR...

So I thought. 

I guess it's natural & part of human nature to let the opinions of others infiltrate into your thought process, even if just a little. It's natural to take in what others say and take careful note. 

I guess never enough to base my decision off others opinions. BUT, enough that it's permanently noted in my invisible mental notepad. I'm relatively good at trying to see things from the perspective of others. I try my best to remove myself from my own universe and see things the way someone else might. 

BUT...

I've noticed recently that I have let it effect me, more so than it has in the past. I let the opinions and observations of others, be the reason I make concrete decisions in my own life. Partially because I see where these folks are coming from. I understand their view point, therefore I take it...skin deep. 

But...

what happened to my drum?  What happened to doing as I pleased? What happened to doing things solely because I feel like it? 

I'm not quite sure what happened, honestly. 

But...

I do know, I want to start my "street beat" up again... I want to silence the world and make my own decisions. In the very end of the day, when I lay my head down to sleep, I'm the one who lives the consequences & reaps the benefits of my decisions.  (& my mom lol...) 

My bystanders love me & I do think they genuinely always want the best for me... 

BUT...

truth is... 

I got it...don't worry...

my decisions are mine to make... 

Xoxo..

signs the girl that is going back to basics...