Embracing Different

You'd be surprise the things we get use to as humans...

Things that at some point seemed "bad", become a norm and eventually all we know.
It's almost like every new experience replaces old ones and becomes the new norm, your new reality.
And you adjust...
sometimes unwillingly, sometimes willing, sometimes because you have to, other times because you choose to...

One thing I've completed embraced in the last few years, is being alone. In my own mental, emotional, spiritual, physical space... Obviously with episodes starring a few individuals, sharing my energy. BUT, none ever fully. none ever for long enough. None ever enough to take away from my own private circle I created with myself.

So much so, that I forgot what truly sharing my energy felt like. I forgot the amount of adjusting required to let someone in, like actually let them in without doubt, hesitation, walls, side eyes, question mark...but like really just open the door saying "Welcome to the Eliz Show"...

It stirs a few thoughts,

1. I guess I hadn't really opened my door before, just a few windows & looked through the peephole from time to time. 
2. This is new...different...far from my comfort zone
3. Holy Sh**, Am I actually ready for this?
4. Once you make yourself available, available happens... 
5. Had I really made "unavailable, bad for me, red flags, dead ends" become my norm??
6. I legit became that girl I never understood, and some how understood exactly why I did all the "wrong" things I did. 
7. Do I want to adjust? 
8. Is this actually how other people outside of my world act?
9. Is this normal...
10. Why is this so comfortable?

We get use to receiving affection a certain way and in turn we are use to showing it a certain way. That doesn't mean there's a right or wrong way, simply a way different than you're accustom to. But when the other way hasn't exactly worked out, its probably time you start embracing different.
You start adjusting to sharing your energy in a way you have yet experienced.
You stop nitpicking all the things that make this different.
You stop highlighting good things as bad...
you stop being so use to bad, that good feels funny...

xoxo
-Signs the girl that feels funny...