Unavailable

"you are a reflection of who you attract..."

This has been the go to phrase the last couple of years. I finally realized what I'm attracting & now I'm simply wondering why. I'm wondering why I'm continuously attracting emotionally unavailable people.

If they are a reflection of me...

then... 

....I'm emotionally unavailable...

::welp::...

HOW?...WHY?...HUH... all my reactions when the reality settled. Here I sit, thinking I have my whole heart open, ready, willing & able...when the actuality might be otherwise...

How do you adjust that? 

How do you figure yourself out?

How do you sit down & change things you don't even realize you are? 

...

then it hit me... I've been given all the time in the world to grow. 

By myself...FOR myself

I've been given the tools to better myself as a person, emotionally. physically and mentally...

& I always seem to start on this self discovery journey, but always sort of drift off half way...

I think its time I stop drifting away from the focus, 
ME, being the focus. 

I do not have children so this is the best time to put all my energy on just myself. To make decisions based on my own feelings and needs. 
I'm unavailable because I still have a lot to work on. I keep seeking what I think I want, when I'm not quite ready for anything at all. When I'm not even sure I know what I want or need. I have a list I keep readjusting. I have a heart that needs some mending. I have a soul that needs some comfort. All things I can only do on my own.

This is me. On my own & unavailable until further notice.

xoxo

Signs- Unavailable.