Be Honest

Honesty. 

I've recently made the discovery that I'm quite the fraud. I'm fake. With the wrong people. At the wrong times & the completely wrong way.

Basically I do everything wrong. ::welp::

The only thing I manage to do right in life is the ability to be extremely open to recognizing my flaws. Not because I put myself down, but because I'm really big on self reflection & well aware the things around us are directly related to our own actions & energy...

with that said...

I'm a fraud.

I'm quite good at showing all of my subtle, "not that serious" emotions, way too good actually. I know how to make a 2.5 into a 10. But when my feelings are actually a 10, I'm good at making them look like a 2.5. WHY?! 
I've yet to discover why I show my sentiments sooo ass backwards. Then I sit and wonder how things go from 0-100 in certain situations... REAL QUICK. 
I need to take a course, a class of sorts that show you the art of showing exactly what you feel. I don't intentionally shelter my heart, & I don't intentionally act extra, where extra isn't required.

I want the seemingly complicated ability to love & show that love. To appreciate & show appreciation. In moderate levels & to the indicated people. I'm good at showing all these fake emotions, but none of the real ones. So I have people I love, thinking I dislike them, & the people I have minor feelings for, thinking I love them... The fugz...
I need some help pronto.

I also need to admit my own feelings to myself. I'm good at saying "nah, I don't care that much", when deep down I'm a mess & care THAT MUCH.

Man Listen... I need to get my thoughts, emotions/feelings together...

ASAP...

xoxo
Signs the fake.