Ohh...

I'm friendly.
I enjoy human interaction.
I easily get along with people because I exude so much energy.
positive,
wholesome,
let me embrace you...
energy.

It's only in the last year or so, that I've realized my energy shouldn't always be shared with everyone. That I shouldn't entirely embrace...
everyone.
That not everyone will take my energy the way I would like it to be received. That I can only control what I put out, not how its perceived. It's not always taken the right way, but then again, what is the right way but a relative interpretation of a "way".
I've missed judge my own actions. Mostly because for a very long time, I didn't care (& still don't fully care) how my actions were interpreted. I only gave an explanation where an explanation deemed necessary. Again, relative to me when the necessary occurred or who mattered enough to me that their interpretation mattered.
But... as of late, I've hit the pause button...because I'm debating the concept of taking into consideration how my actions are being perceived & if it should in fact matter.

At least a little.

We are in fact on this earth among others. I am not the center of the galaxy, no matter how much I rather think otherwise. In the end people run with their perception as matter of fact, & they act based on what they think. Which in turn leads to possibly doing things that I wouldn't agree with. Or doing things that leave me completely in shock. But I'm truly a self reflective person & decided it was time to look at which one of my actions lead to a reaction.

The power of self reflecting (true genuine unbiased reflection) is immense. You realize a lot, and sometimes an "ah-ha" moment is simply an "oh shit" moment. Which is the one I had today.
Oh-Shit, that's why this happened... and a task often even more difficult than self-reflection...is actually doing something to change...

so that's where I am today... I'm in the..."will I actually change" stage... Figuring out how cautious I will be with the energy I'm putting out and how much I will actually care moving forward...

I guess we'll see...

xoxo
-Signs- OH SHIT...