As I'm seeking this middle place, I realized I have put myself in some odd situations. Accepting shitloads of bull because I had no expectations. If you don't set standards you find yourself being down with just about everything. Everything goes when you're in limbo, you put yourself in a situation where expecting too much isn't expected...or even "allowed" really... You learn to accept everything and be okay with it....
With that being said, there's the other side of the coin... legit, solid, official relationships. Those in which standards are set and a certain level of expectations noted...
Realizing that there too, you must accept some level of bull....accept that imperfection is a reality, and that bullshit comes in all shapes and forms... I'm slowly coming to terms with that. (real real slow)...
There will always be something you have to put up with... & if I expect something/anything to last. I have to be willing and able to accept some level of bullshit. It's solely up to me, what my "level" is...everyone has their own standards and meter.
I have to come to terms with the reality that things are only picture perfect on Instagram & not in every day life. That with every good moment, come a number of bad ones...and that I have to essentially be okay and ready for that.
If I want anything to last.
People will upset you, hurt you and do things that you will not like. The solution isn't to run from it, it's with growing with it, learning from it...and building your tolerance levels.
BUT...I've seen some of the things people tolerate, & It's sometimes MIND-BLOWING.... I can't fathom the thought... but then I shut up, I take a seat and realize that you never really know what you'll tolerate, even if you haven't in the past. New situations, circumstances and people make you tolerate different things.
the real question you always have to ask yourself is..."Do I want this to last..."even with the bullshit...
xoxo
Signs the girl just trying to figure shit out.
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