Once you get past the crazy & the unnecessary sarcasm... My energy is dope.
Contagious of sorts.
People enjoy vibing with me as much as I love vibing with people.
People enjoy vibing with me as much as I love vibing with people.
I'm carefree at an age where people start losing that youthful spirit.
I'm a refreshing reminder of what it is to just live the way you choose.
I'm uplifting and overwhelm people with what it is to be me..
I'm uplifting and overwhelm people with what it is to be me..
I'm energy...
A positive feel good...
Energy...
A positive feel good...
Energy...
Which leads to my issue...
I'm a people hoarder. I keep people from all my walks of life. I keep them close enough that sometimes they get in the way. Enough that if need be, they can feel comfortable reaching out for me. Enough that I'm available.
Enough that every one gets a tiny piece of energy & some...an overwhelming part of me...
Enough that I'm almost losing more energy than I'm getting back.
I have this odd inability to fully push anyone away. I am capable of keeping to myself and not reaching out (some cases are more difficult than others)
BUT...
I am unable to truly block someone from my life. Incapable of fully ignoring someone when they reach out.
It's like I keep everyone in my back pocket.
This is somewhat associated to my memory. I have amnesia of sorts. I easily forget hurtful words or actions. I don't hold grudges, I get past stuff because nothing is ever that serious. I overreact then I take a step back and get over it... So I easily keep people, because everyone gets a clean slate... because I only keep a list of the good things unless I constantly remind myself of the bad...
I was once told "I'm the glue that holds people together"...
But some days I wonder...
what about me?
It comes in handy to be surrounded by so many people...
But some days, certain days...
I want to get the energy I'm giving... I want someone to fill the empty spaces that sometimes I'm lacking... I want someone to be dope for me, when I'm not feeling myself...
Some instances you give so much energy and hold your breath waiting to get it back...
& pass out.
xoxo
signs the girl lacking a bit of energy...
I have this odd inability to fully push anyone away. I am capable of keeping to myself and not reaching out (some cases are more difficult than others)
BUT...
I am unable to truly block someone from my life. Incapable of fully ignoring someone when they reach out.
It's like I keep everyone in my back pocket.
This is somewhat associated to my memory. I have amnesia of sorts. I easily forget hurtful words or actions. I don't hold grudges, I get past stuff because nothing is ever that serious. I overreact then I take a step back and get over it... So I easily keep people, because everyone gets a clean slate... because I only keep a list of the good things unless I constantly remind myself of the bad...
I was once told "I'm the glue that holds people together"...
But some days I wonder...
what about me?
It comes in handy to be surrounded by so many people...
But some days, certain days...
I want to get the energy I'm giving... I want someone to fill the empty spaces that sometimes I'm lacking... I want someone to be dope for me, when I'm not feeling myself...
Some instances you give so much energy and hold your breath waiting to get it back...
& pass out.
xoxo
signs the girl lacking a bit of energy...
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