Forever ever...

I was asked yesterday if I still believed in "forevers"... 

As simple as the question may seem, it's complexities are many, and I have layers and layers of answers to that question... But my reply was as simple as this...

"forever" requires a patience and some sense of complacency, that not everyone is equipped with.

Am I equipped with these two very things that make forever possible? Do I have the patience that is required for a long term partnership, or the perfect amount of complacency in me to be ok with who I've chosen...forever.

That's the part that I can't quite answer just yet. I don't know what it is to be complacent. The minute something becomes uncomfortable for me, I look for ways to change it. I'm a believer that when something isn't working out for you, you strategize in doing something that will. All things that might not seem like bad things, until you're discussing a forever with someone.

Relationships will get uncomfortable and certain things you can not change... It won't always feel right... it won't always make sense... it won't always make you feel brand new... It won't always be exactly what you want. All things that require your patience... & requires your ability to become numb to the situation.... it requires you to stick to the decision you made initially to a forever.

So I don't know if I believe in forever anymore. I'm not sure if I have the blinding ability to believe that I have what it takes to go through life jumping every hurdle required to survive a forever.

& maybe I could... but I guess I'm not sure if I want to.

for now I'll enjoy the luxuries of "temporary forevers"... because every memory...every moment in life is a forever that you will carry with you... and I'm ok with that. I'm ok with the forevers that don't make it, ever.

xoxo

signs the girl evaluating forever...