The Search

Somewhere along the line I turned 28... 

Almost like I woke up one day and was no longer 21. 

While in some instances it feels like it happened over night. 

When I look back at all the things that happened... 

well,

It feels more like an eternity. 

One of the positive things of being an over-thinker, (which if you didn't know by now, I over think everything).. is being able to look back and reflect a lot... 

a whole lot. 

doing this you observe your many journeys and reflect on the person you were and are. 

& LORD have I changed.

It's almost like I'm worlds apart from that girl I use to be. 

so much so, 

if they were to meet today, they might not even be friends. 

ekkk!!

At some point in my journey, I felt that was a bad thing, like I wasn't a fan of the person I was becoming. Simply because things just weren't as easy anymore. 

BUT. 

I learned

that life never gets easier (For anyone), that doesn't mean you should be more like the person you were. It simply means the things you've been through have made you who you are today. 

& I think I'm starting to be okay with her. 

HER.

That girl now woman who still hasn't figured it all out, but has finally accepted that life is a constant search, its a constant evolution. & I'll always be morphing, growing and changing.

One day my old self & my new self will morph into my better self...

for now

I like her.

xoxo

-Signs the girl thats still searching