Beginnings...

"Beginnings are scary, especially after many bumpy endings. 

This doesn't mean you should avoid them. 

This doesn't mean you should expect the worst. 

This doesn't mean this beginning won't change absolutely everything. 

Beginnings are meant to be scary, with it comes new experiences, lessons, and another story to tell....

and hopefully one that continues to write itself... 

xoxo ElizTalks"

I think we all have our thoughts on how we feel about new beginnings. How quickly we embrace them, how open we are to jumping in, how willing we are to actually start... or how reluctant we become to start new chapters, how scary the unknown truly is, how unwilling we are to actually start...
As we get older, beginnings usually mean something else ended, So it comes with a mix of bitter sweet feelings. It comes with this sense of excitement for what's to come, mixed with nostalgia for what use to be, blended with fear of what will come from it.

The more we experience in life, the more immune we become to the constant beginning & ending of things. We become numb almost, to this cycle. New friends, new jobs, new partners, new homes... which means old friends, old jobs, old partners, old homes... the list goes on. Life consist of moments that are always either beginning or ending...

and in some rare special cases, simply continuing... A story that has one beginning with a series of little endings, yet no true end...an infinite experience that is continuous. Still filled with chapters of beginnings but maybe not the ones you're use to... these beginnings are usually the scariest or the most natural. You never really know what's to come off a first step, probably not even after several.

Life leaves us with the certainty that nothing is in fact certain. That solid foundations crack, that brick walls crumble, & that a beginning that felt like it would never have an end...could.

This doesn't mean we shouldn't begin again... this doesn't mean we should be so fearful of what we don't know that we fail to experience a story... that this beginning might be different than any other & you wouldn't know that, unless you actually start...

Beginnings are scary, especially after man bumpy endings...
this doesn't mean you should avoid them...

never know what infinite beginnings come with it...

xoxo
Signs the girl considering a new book...

A race to forever...

As the clock ticks & I get closer & closer to a much anticipated age of 30... I've come to accept, learn and observe a lot about human nature, in my 29.99 years of life.

I've seen a lot & I've done a lot in this lifetime so far. I've experienced enough to fill a book, yet never enough to stop learning. Sometimes I even look back and think I've lived a few lives in just this one. & I wouldn't change that for anything in the world.

With experiences come many lessons... With interactions come many observations...One prominent observation I've made, is how we're constantly racing to forever... Certain things we wish to begin despite them having no real "end"... Families, Love, Friendships, Careers... I admit for a long time I was this person. This person who's life worked on a timeline & outline. That things had to align a certain way for my life to be "right". That if by this age, I wasn't doing this, then I might as well crumble into nothingness.

I admit, for a split second on any given day, I still reach these moments of anxiety in which I mentally hyperventilate at the idea that my life isn't "where it should be, by now"... That certain things aren't progressing "as they should be"... only to take a seat & remind myself, who decides MY "should be"...

Then I realize I'm racing to forever... & I stop.

That life is going to happen if I plan it or not. That I'm going to experience things if I'm meant to. That my forever is a series of moments that make up my right now. That I've geniuely gotten more out of life with my temporary forevers, that some won't in forever...

That if I'm waiting on a story that will last forever, it still won't mean as much as the forever I'm already living right now.

That if it begins today or 5 years from now, it won't change it's worthiness. That we get so consumed in every other individuals story that we forget we can only live our own. That just because they are doing it differently doesn't mean they are doing it right... doesn't mean they are doing it wrong either... they are just doing. As you should just do....

That the only true ticking clock is the biological clock, & even that one has been adjusted by science.

That racing to forever won't make forever last any longer. Or make it any better.

That my forever might end tomorrow... and I'll still be fine with the forever I've lived.

That maybe some experiences aren't meant for you & others are.

That forever is forever for a reason, so just go with it....

that every second...makes up forever.

xoxo

Signs the girl accepting her right now.