Sour Patch Kid

You may or may have not heard of the sour patch kids reference.

"First they're sour, then they're sweet"

In a nutshell, if I had one phrase that can fully describe me...that would be it. My ability to go from savage to cuddly rabbit is unmatched.

It's mostly because I suffer from "instant regret"...
I will verbally beat you to a pulp (I never get physical, EVER),
I will do whatever the F I want unconcerned with who it's effecting
I will follow my heart without a care of the repercussions.

only later to feel the regret in the pits of my soul & do everything in my ability to "fix" it or make it better...

Like a sour path kid...first I'm sour, then I'm sweet.

Not everyone could handle the bitter sweetness of me. BUT, (unfortunately or fortunately) people seem to gravitate towards my sweet ways, enough that they endure the sour to a certain capacity. Everyone learns to deal with it, which is why I never really changed. People cater to my unruly ways more than I'm willing to admit. I guess I'm cool or something

BUT...

Since I'm no longer 15, I want to change for myself.  I want to react a little slower, be a little less impulsive, halt my "no fucks given" train. Re-activate my chill button. because let's face it... if you know me, you know I am none of the above currently.

When I get something in my head, nothing could really stop me from fully executing, even if immediately after I do everything to retract. but once it's done, it's done...

So I'm working on it. Building up the sweet side, toning down the sour... because let's face it, one day I'm going to get beat. :)

xoxo
-Signs the sour patch kid.